i find it really funny how everyone in my life has different views of me. when i say this, i mean everyone in my life has had a different expierence with me. everyone has seen different sides of me and there’s so many different prspectives.

i don’t talk to many of these people anymore, but the women in my life i have such a massive curiosity as to what their perspective is of me. yes i know this sounds so incel like or whatever the fuck, but i think about it because the person i was during those times, and the feelings i expressed with these two people, i feel like there will never be a single person who would ever see that side of me again.

holy fuck this sounds so cringe dude but like listen man, the things i did for them i have never done for other people. the amount of preperation and planning that went into the things we did, the way i dressed, the way i spoke, how i behaved would be so out of character for anybody else who knows me and would see that side. like dude i REALLY want to do that again. the whole idea is just the fact that i was most vulnerable with these people, and nobody else knows what that looks like, so it’s just an interesting thought.

i should make a not depressing post sometime, i literally only think to post here when im upset about something.

wait i can add something cool

ok so i was going to put a picture of my genesis camo i got on bo7, easiest camo grind but i wish they released ranked. i deadass went to cod and was like “im not opening this just for a screenshot”

instead you can have this. i love it. volume lowered for your convenience