heyyyyyyyyyy

been feeling like shit lately as always. things are changing, it’s really weird. im in a new phase of life. you ever get to one of those points in your life where you’re like: “yup things really are different”

i don’t want things to be different. i was so much happier at my old job with my friends, why did they have to fuck things up. i fucked up too honestly so i can’t say the blame is all on them.

i miss my ex, breaking up with her is actually the dumbest things i’ve ever done. you ever think about your life decisions and how if you didn’t make one decision, things would be perfect? yeah this was one of those decisions. i wouldn’t have had to quit my job so early, i would still have a good chunk of my friends, and i wouldn’t feel like i want to kill myself.

my teacher is emailing me right now being a fucking dickhead, and i really want to call him that, but for the sake of not having my grade sabotaged i didn’t. (maybe at the end of the semester lol)

to anyone reading this, stranger, family, friend, check up on your loved ones, you never know who needs it.